10 Months of 2010

Though 2010 has proved to be quite an interesting year, 2010 is no lesser than that. I've moved to my new house (i'm still renting tho') which is a good thing. I think the old house was kinda creepy have that eerie effect.. somehow has bad feng shui or something that sort. I can't really put my finger in to it.

The old story 'AstroBoy' is out of the picture already (so yesterday babes). I really think it was just stupid infatuations that I had since I wasn't dating anyone at that moment. However, I do not regret an inch of the decisions I've made concerning to 'AstroBoy'... :). Why hold on to something that is harmful and not beneficial? That screams Danger Ahead from 10 miles away? Don't you think?

I'm sad that I went on the long hiatus ever on my blog. Y? Guess I just lost my flair for babbling with words these past months. I'm proud to say that it's all back??!! (I hope)

Most importantly, this year I've lost a once good friend (or so I thought she was <-- This story needs a post of its own), and on the other hand, I've gained lots of new ones. Who said friends last forever?! haha, look at paris hilton? they change BFF like they change their clothes too. LOL.

Since I left my blog empty for quite some time, I'm planning to post past events + new. So, please bear with the updates.... Let me see, I'll try to list down what I feel like blogging and strike them off the list when I'm done with it or don't feel like to.

1. She is My Frienemy
2. New Skills Acquired
3. "Rome"
4. "Blog-Shopping"
5. "Boy-Pals"
6. The Teaching Profession
7. Wishlist
8. The Game of Love

So far, that's the planned out topics. hopefully there will be more interesting things.


"my life's final destination is to God"




much love,
oat

Waking Up and a short Goodbye.

Hello.. after a long hiatus since last year. Nearly a year. I didn't want to start off a new blog .. So, I'll just pick up where I left off.

2010 has really been interestingly challenging in a sweet bitter sour way, though I wouldn't mind all the recent good stuff that has been happening.

last year's story was a lot about AstroBoy, which was very complicated. I hadn't really resolve the situation as dainty as I would like but then again endings are not as romantic and easy realistically.
I've lived quite a fairytale last year... full of drama! sheesh.. lucky for me, that has ended.

I'm not gonna post a long one dis time as I've got another thing in mind. I will be writing my life again..

To AstroBoy a silent goodbye
if you're reading.....

I wish you good luck, happiness.
I forgave you a long time ago.
Live life.
it's just that, I don't want to have you in my life again.
Goodbye.


alright, with that done. I am very proud of myself that I've forgave and moved on and said my goodbyes.

sometimes, some people are not worth keeping, don't you think?


love,
aud.

Appreciating the little things

I've come a long way since january, reaching the end of 2009, I look back at what I've been through, I've still got so much to learn, so much to understand. Overall, it's been a good year. Mentally, physically, emotionally, financially, and spiritually. Yes. It's been great. Well, not that I'm saying it has been 24hrs, 3-6-9 good... but, weighing out the pros and cons and appreciating the good things, yeah.. I can say it's great.

When you don't expect too much out of yourself, and life, Life can be satisfaying and happy. I've learnt that, as humans, we are only able to plan, but life takes its course naturally without abiding to our plans and timing. And so, I am learning to take life as it is. Expectations are natural. But, we shouldn't be kicking our butts, dreading of things we want but fail to get in our life, and in the end, end up being depressed, lifeless, most importantly, unhappy.

To be happy, is each individual right. I think, self-happiness is gained through being content and happy about yourself first, before the factor of other people in your life makes you happy. In a way, (for me at least...) to be happy, nessesity is yourself, others are just supplement to being happy.

I do admit, I'm not the most cheery - happy- almost everyday laughing- kinda person.. At least, I try to be happy, even when my skies are not that bright. I'm still very much single, but does that make me, UNHAPPY? Must I really need a relationship to allow me to be happy? I've been badly hurt by someone.. I embrace the fact that I'm hurt and sad, but must I really make life unhappy and gloomy?

I thank God for his grace and blessings... and for past recent happenings, are just to make me a stronger person. Well, with time and patience, wounds will heal, though it will never be the same, scars will remain as memories and teaching.