Waking Up and a short Goodbye.

Hello.. after a long hiatus since last year. Nearly a year. I didn't want to start off a new blog .. So, I'll just pick up where I left off.

2010 has really been interestingly challenging in a sweet bitter sour way, though I wouldn't mind all the recent good stuff that has been happening.

last year's story was a lot about AstroBoy, which was very complicated. I hadn't really resolve the situation as dainty as I would like but then again endings are not as romantic and easy realistically.
I've lived quite a fairytale last year... full of drama! sheesh.. lucky for me, that has ended.

I'm not gonna post a long one dis time as I've got another thing in mind. I will be writing my life again..

To AstroBoy a silent goodbye
if you're reading.....

I wish you good luck, happiness.
I forgave you a long time ago.
Live life.
it's just that, I don't want to have you in my life again.
Goodbye.


alright, with that done. I am very proud of myself that I've forgave and moved on and said my goodbyes.

sometimes, some people are not worth keeping, don't you think?


love,
aud.

Appreciating the little things

I've come a long way since january, reaching the end of 2009, I look back at what I've been through, I've still got so much to learn, so much to understand. Overall, it's been a good year. Mentally, physically, emotionally, financially, and spiritually. Yes. It's been great. Well, not that I'm saying it has been 24hrs, 3-6-9 good... but, weighing out the pros and cons and appreciating the good things, yeah.. I can say it's great.

When you don't expect too much out of yourself, and life, Life can be satisfaying and happy. I've learnt that, as humans, we are only able to plan, but life takes its course naturally without abiding to our plans and timing. And so, I am learning to take life as it is. Expectations are natural. But, we shouldn't be kicking our butts, dreading of things we want but fail to get in our life, and in the end, end up being depressed, lifeless, most importantly, unhappy.

To be happy, is each individual right. I think, self-happiness is gained through being content and happy about yourself first, before the factor of other people in your life makes you happy. In a way, (for me at least...) to be happy, nessesity is yourself, others are just supplement to being happy.

I do admit, I'm not the most cheery - happy- almost everyday laughing- kinda person.. At least, I try to be happy, even when my skies are not that bright. I'm still very much single, but does that make me, UNHAPPY? Must I really need a relationship to allow me to be happy? I've been badly hurt by someone.. I embrace the fact that I'm hurt and sad, but must I really make life unhappy and gloomy?

I thank God for his grace and blessings... and for past recent happenings, are just to make me a stronger person. Well, with time and patience, wounds will heal, though it will never be the same, scars will remain as memories and teaching.

How to Hurt Someone?

Hmm... out of the blue, I'm all for words.

How do you hurt someone? skin deep, right to the soul?

You don't have to beat them up (unless they're really oxy-stupid fucking morons)
seriously.
Words and silence is all there is.
That is why, I believe, do good to one point till the point of no return.
I have no hatred, but I do you good, don't till, You f'up, and give me shit.
that's when, all my "unlikely words of wisdom" seem to cheer the mood.

Owh, but I forgot, there are also other ways, where you just be fucking oblivious, of ignorant about the whole wide world, where the only thing you think of, is your fuckin' self. believe me, that's the the top of all cream.

ignorance is blissful. always has, always will be.
*to those who are just f'up in mind.*